Today has come Jennifer, as much as I didnt want to too. 4 years without you by my side, today I held you for the first time dreaming of angels xxx Words cant describe how mummy feels today, I miss you so so much, Id give anything to be planning a birthday party for you tonight, buying a cake and sweets, waiting for your little friends to come over later, Insted I am sitting on my own, looking at your pink and white flowers that are sitting on my window ledge.........so unfair x 4 years seems so long to be without you, it is long far too long,,,,,,,,yet today it seems ilke yesterday.......
Have a lovely time today with your little friends today, eat lots of chocolate and cake and be happy
I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother And I know I heard him say. A Mother has a baby This we know is true.'
But God, can you be a Mother When your baby's not with you? Yes, you can, He replied With confidence in His voice I give many women babies When they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime And others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this, God I want my baby here He took a breath and cleared His throat And then I saw a tear. I wish I could show you What your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile With other children and say: "We go to earth to learn our lessons Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a Mom Who had so much love for me I learned my lesson very quickly My Mommy set me free. I miss my Mommy oh so much But I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep On her pillow's where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek And whisper in her ear. "Mommy don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see my dear sweet one Your children are ok Your babies are here in My home And this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with Me Until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home They'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother It's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of Right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize You are a Mother until their time is done. They'll be up here with Me one day And you know you're the best one!
When tomorrow starts without me.... / Mummy Read >>
When tomorrow starts without me.... / Mummy
When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
When tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry The way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye, For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, So much yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, Just even for awhile, I'd say goodbye and kiss you And maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized, That this could never be, For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me. And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne, He said "This is eternity, And all I've promised you." Today for life on earth is past, But here it starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, And since each day's the same day There's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true. Thought there were times you did some things, You knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven And now at last you're free. So won't you take my hand And share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me, Don't think we're far apart, For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart.
darling Jennifer ... / Eileen Budd (friend to her mummy )Read >>
darling Jennifer ... / Eileen Budd (friend to her mummy )
Darling Jennifer ....... you are a beautiful angel sweetheart , who has left an everlasting impression in your mummys heart and mind ...... So so loved and wanted ........... Her words about you have been written with so much love and honesty ......
Your mummy is a lovely lady and for that you are so lucky ...... Josh your big brother loves you too (that Iam sure of) and so do many of mummys' friends who have grown to know you over these months ......
May you play safely with all your angel friends God Bless you and keep you safe darling ........
You stood in the gap....(for Judith xx) / Mummy Read >>
You stood in the gap....(for Judith xx) / Mummy
You stood in the gap…
You stood in the gap when my world was collapsing around me I was drowning in a sea of broken dreams, living with a broken heart, The pain I was in was real to feel, no-one in the world could really see When they saw my tears they never asked why my eyes were full of tears People would always say “don’t worry you will be ok”
But you took time to stop noticing the tears and pain in my eyes You didn’t walk away, you took time to ask me why tears filled my eyes You never walked away from me, because it was too much You stood beside me through the tears, we walked the path together You held me and stopped me drowning in my sea of endless tears
On the days when I could physically and emotionally take no more You listened to me, held me, you stayed beside me in the worst days You walked beside me through the door to counselling, A door I would never have made it through, if it wasn’t for you Walking beside me, you held my hand when there was no-one else
When you call Jennifer by her name, and talk about her to me Each time you bring me a sense of joy, you may never see As a mummy of an angel, to hear her name means so much it allows me to say her name too, and that’s ok, Just because I cannot see her, doesn’t mean she didn’t exist
Judith you stepped into my life at a critical time, So critical you may never fully realise, I was almost at a point of deciding life or death, I was drowning in my sea of broken dreams I could no longer stay afloat in all the tears
But you stepped up beside me and stood in the gap Reached out your hand and put in into mine you never let me go, you have been therThorough the roller coaster of emotions that hit me You have stayed there, caring, supporting, seeing me through
When I gave you your award I was so proud of you You had got recognition of all you have done for me For standing by me through all those tears, a day of mixed emotions for us both, we smiled through the tears, I’m certain there was a little angel smiling down from heaven too xx
YOU LEFT YOUR FOOTPRINTS IN MY HEART ALTHOUGH APART, YOU ARE WITH ME EVERYDAY NOT A DAY GOES BY YOU DONT CROSS MY MIND MY LOVE FOR YOU KNOWS NO LIMIT OF TIME YOU ARE MY DAUGHTER, THAT IS TRUE BUT INSTED OF LOVING YOU ON EARTH MY LOVE GOES FURTHER, BEYOND THE MOON AND SUN IT REACHES YOU UP ABOVE THE STARS
IT BROKE MY HEART TO LET YOU GO THE PAIN I FELT, NOBODY KNOWS BORN TOO SOON, HAD TO SAY GOODBYE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE I WILL ASK 'WHY?' TO PRECIOUS FOR EARTH TAKEN TO HEAVEN IF ONLY A REASON I HAD BEEN GIVEN
YOU WILL BE IN MY HEART EVERY DAY UNTIL MY TIME COMES TO SEE YOU AGAIN I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS, WHEN I CAN SLEEP AND IN MY HEART YOU WALK WITH ME EACH DAY I WILL SHOW YOU THE TREES, THE SKY OF BLUE I WILL TAKE YOU TO THE BEACH, SHOW YOU THE SEA